It was there in that moment 5 years ago, I found myself falling to a place of surrender with God. It had been over three years of heartache and struggle. Trying month after month to get pregnant, with miscarriages sprinkled throughout. I’d grown weary from the fight and knew that I needed to give it all to the One who held it in His hands from the beginning.
Little did I know that just two weeks after sharing that post, I would get a positive pregnancy test and it would be the first pregnancy to make it all the way. Nine months later we held our baby in our arms and experienced firsthand the faithfulness of God, to hear our heart’s cry and work all things in His perfect timing. Not too long after, we’d go on to have our second daughter, who was quite the joyful surprise! And, now years later, the sting of that season has given way to diaper changes, toddler tantrums, sleepless nights, and giggly snuggles.
In all of life, seasons come and go, and here I find myself back into a new, but familiar season of heartache and longing. While this time it is not for the birth of a baby, it’s a longing for the birth of a calling. And this post from 5 years ago, which so timely resurfaced, is relevant once again. There’s been much that God has placed on my heart to share and do, ways to serve and use all things, both painful and joyful, to bring hope to others and glory to Him. Again I realize I must return to that place of surrender, relinquishing fear and control for the plans He has.. my ultimate good.
Maybe you can relate to these feelings? Heartache and longing? Questions unanswered, hope still lingering? When, Lord? How? Will it ever? Hang on my sweet friend. God is ever so faithful, sweet and merciful. We have to lay it down to Him daily and trust that He is working all things for our God. His plans are so much greater, and we can find joy in that!